Its the screaming.

I hear someone in side screaming, sobbing. It's a child. I tried to find her, but I think its a second house member. Thats where our emotions usually go. The second house members usually don't know why they feel real bad, they just do. Its cause the first house remembers the chain of events, the second house remembers how it felt.

There is a pipe that flows beneath the lake. Emotions that we cant process goes to them through the pipe, and chain of event memories that they cant process goes to us.

I hate it when the pipe gets plugged or otherwise sluggish. I think Theo needs to roto rooter it out. Theo knows how that works the best.

Speaking of pipes. I hate my kitchen sink. The garbage disposal went wacky oh, about 6 months ago. It just doesn't work anymore. I think it was one of those DIDn't things. I DIDn't know it was a bad idea to was out the hermit crab sand over the sink, tho had I been in my taller frame of mind I think I would have known better. Anyway, the garbage disposal has been out of wack for a while. The pipe is reaping the effects of having an out of wack garbage disposal, because no matter how much we drain-o the sink, or how much we use the tiolet plunger to force the water down, it doesn't get better. I know I should call the maintenece man to have him fix it, but.....

On the note of calling the maintenece man, our shower in the master bedroom has been leaking for about a year now. I am so glad we don't have to pay for water here. It is totally silly, but I can NOT bring myself to calling that man. I have never met him, so there isn't anything I have against him, but every time I think, I'm just going to do it, I get the feeling like I'm shrinking, and I hear one of the kids say please dont. Please don't call him. Hubby is the only guy they trust I guess. Arg. To be honest, I don't want that guy in my house either. I hate it when my mother in law comes inside here. Hubby and me, thats it.

My house is a mess. I think sometimes it's a good thing that I don't have any kids. It is kinda hard to talk myself into cleaning this place when I work really hard all day. It is not easy to get 8 people dressed, half of them showered, looking presentable in 2 and a half hours. I'm getting better at it though, Lots better. just 3 weeks ago, I could barely do 4 people in that time frame, now I'm at about 7. Gimme a few more weeks. I'll be super CNA.

I need to go to sleep. Its only 8:00p here and I'm exhausted.

LeAnne